I don’t know how many of the people I connected with over the last few years are still around reading Peace Corps blogs, but if anyone is still out there (comment and let me know you’re still around!) I’m glad to be back. I plan on getting back into the habit of updating this blog. The main reason being, things are looking up as far as my Peace Corps journey goes. If you are a first time visitor to my blog, please feel free to look around and read the last few entries to get up to speed as I am not going to get into it again right now (don’t want to ruin my positive energy!).
I finally talked things over with my parents and things are good. I know that this is not my Dad’s first choice for me (or second, or third……) but he has basically agreed to disagree and is being supportive and even seemed excited for me. I know that for him it is mostly just worry. He worries for my safety, my financial stability, and my success in the future. When it conflicts with what I want to do it is hard for me to not be angry or upset, but when I take the time to think about it I am so thankful to have parents who are always looking out for me and helping me to be happy, healthy, and successful. I owe so much of who I am and what I have to them and I need to always remember to be grateful for that.
I am on Fall Break from school right now and I took a few days to go visit one of my best friends in Oregon. It was absolutely what I have been needing. I was blown away by how beautiful Oregon was and now that I am back in 100 degree Phoenix I am having serious nice weather withdrawals! It was also really great to get to see my friend and catch up with her. She seems genuinely happy in her new surroundings and is fitting in perfectly (as she would anywhere). I always have great conversations with her and this trip was no exception. Basically I love Oregon and I love her (if you’re reading this…hey Tay!)
I heard from my placement specialist at Peace Corps headquarters today with some encouraging news. He said that I am being considered for Primary Education placements leaving between July and September 2012. He said that I will hear from them by March and it is likely I will hear from them before then with potential placements. I was really happy to hear that because March is when I will need to start applying for jobs for next year or sign a contract for a second year at my current school. I really like the school I am working at right now. We are in a lower income neighborhood so many of my students are on food stamps and other government funded programs. They face a lot of challenges, but it is so inspiring to see how strong my little kiddos are and how positive they can be in spite of everything. I am struggling with some of the programs my school has implemented to help raise test scores (we have not met AYP for the last few years so we are on performance improvement plans). I do not feel comfortable teaching the way the programs require and for that reason I will likely look elsewhere for a job next year.
I feel like things are really looking up and I am feeling very positive about the Peace Corps. Last May I was feeling very defeated and was harboring some negative feelings toward the organization and the experience (for obvious reasons). I no longer have any of those feelings and believe that this happened for a reason. One benefit is that I am SO busy at work it is much easier to manage the anxiety of waiting to hear from the PC office! I have only been off for a week and I miss my kiddos. I find myself wondering what they are doing or where they are. Many of the kids at my school go to Mexico over the break and often they do not all come back, so I am crossing my fingers that I still have all 20 of my little sweet peas when I get back on Monday!
So that’s all for now. I am going to try and get back in the habit of posting here regularly, although probably not quite as frequently as I have in the past since I am basically just waiting for an invitation.
A quote that really embodies the way I am feeling right now comes from Fernanda Miramontes-Landeros:
“Give thanks for what you are today, and keep fighting for what you want to be tomorrow.”
Until next time, paz y amor.